I sent a letter to my mum on Friday telling her everything about my eating disorder. Its been going on for almost a year and she knows nothing.
The letter will arrive tomorrow or the next day. My anxiety is nuts and i have broken out in a rash on my arms, legs, foot, neck and a bit on my face. Yay for emotional stress. Last time i got hives. Fingers crossed right.
Im terrified. I know that she is my mum and it will be ok. I know she loves me and i am not responsible for how she will feel (gotta remember that). But it is so scary telling someone, who means so much to you, that you have a horrible secret. Its hard to break out of everything being a secret. But its just another step to recovery.
Secrets keep us sick.
- From my lecture slide in class today